She states: “Why have you so doubted me at all in your life? “ ‘I heard him say,’ “My child, you have a purpose to fulfill.” ‘He said to me.’ “Stop questioning me and embrace your testimony embrace what I brought you through.” ‘He said ’ “you love because you never felt the love you’ve been searching for, you fell hard because you gave all your energy and love to the wrong people.” In a lot of ways this author’s experience in this particular instance is similar to my daughter Brandy’s. I didn’t understand it to the point of resisting the thought process.” This would lead to perhaps the most profound part of this book, the author’s description of her actual talk with God. I truly didn’t see why I was allowed to enter a place of so much suffering, just to turn around and be placed in a family that really loved and took me in. In a most profound statement in this book, and after her experience with a foster parent that tried to harm her, she states: “It wasn’t easy, transferring my life from a mother that cared nothing for me to a single mother that gave up everything to adopt me. She further states: “I saw that flashback as a greater strength and testimony for my life.” She describes this flashback (light) as God’s presence at such a youthful age. She (foster mother) threw back a loud laugh and enjoyed every minute of my suffering.” Hicks would reveal how she would later wake up in a hospital, and would later in life have flashbacks of that particular episode in her life. The last thing I remember was being burned all over my body. She dumped me in the water and I sat there crying, two years old, barely able to save myself. I didn’t know exactly what hot water felt like but I quickly found out. She describes this woman as abusive mentally as well as physically, with the lady stating just before she proceeded in her attempt to drown and burn her to death in the bath water: “You will never be anything and never have been, and I see why your parents gave you up.” Quite graphically, the author states of this encounter: “She grabbed me by the hair and dragged me to the bath. Hicks states in her book that this particular foster mother gave the real mothers that took in orphans a bad name. One of which is being adopted by a loving and nurturing mother, especially after having earlier been in a foster care home and the assigned parent or mother submerged her into scalding bath water with the intent to harm her. There have been many defining moments in the author’s life, which she writes about in Said I Wouldn’t Tell It. This was the experience my own mother had to live through during the course of raising 10 children basically by herself, so Hick’s story certainly resonates with me for so many obvious and profound reasons. Never knowing one’s birth parents even to this day can exact a devastating toll on the psyche of anyone, as it did the author, particularly a young child having to grow up in a cruel world. From talking with her and reading this book, I can say that she is well on her way. This young lady has aspirations of being a CEO of a Fortune 500 company and building her own ministry. J(San Diego's East County) - Tameka Hicks is on the Dean’s List at Xavier University in New Orleans, but as proud as she might be of that achievement I get the feeling from reading her book Said I Wouldn’t Tell It…But I Just Can’t keep It To Myself, that she is most proud of being on “ God’s List.” Being given up at birth by her parents and after being placed in from foster home to foster home, Hicks describes in this spiritual and heartrending book how her trust level had bottomed out, describing in vivid detail how she was abused mentally, emotionally and physically. Facebook Journalism Project covid-19 reporting.
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